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When my husband and I have deep conversations while driving the kids to sleep and I suddenly remember why I fell so in love with him. :)
The doctor I saw for workers comp put me on light duty for work, which means I can’t do any patient care because it entails a lot of bending, lifting, pulling and pushing. So I have to do audits and paper work until I can come off light duty.
That’s ok. But they are telling me I cannot work nights or weekends. I only work nights on weekends. As a result I am taking a huge pay drop. We are closing on our house next week and this drop in income is a huge problem. I don’t understand why I have to work different hours than I usually do and get paid less just because of workers comp. It’s very inconvenient too, because on sundays hubby is off so I can work every Sunday, with no problem with babysitting….but they won’t let me. Now I have to find a babysitter for three days a week.
And also we are closing next week, which means we both need to be off on the day we close on the house.
My back still hurts like hell. I am just at home caring for the kids and trying to rest and shit this shit is painful!!!!!
On the other hand, I can’t wait to move into our own home! :)
So my mil has been helping out by watching kids. This is a great thing, except she is old school Jamaican n she always thinks her way is the only way and she is always right. Which means she gives the kids medicines that aren’t meant for kids sometimes, despite my telling her It’s not for kids.
One time she gave baby this cough and cold medicine behind my back n I lwt it slide cuz I figured if we use it in Jamaica for kids tgen I guess It’s ok. But I tried to make sure she doesn’t give her anymore cuz I dont know what it can do to her kidneys and liver and what other side effects it has.
Recently baby had a raised SCAR (which means it was already healing) in her diaper area from a bad case of diarrhea that was healing with continued use of desitin. Well sge decided she didn’t like how it looked so she took a random cream some doctor recommended decades ago for ring worm for herbson when he was a kid and put it on my baby’s diaper area, and on her dry itchy leg spot. I looked it up and it said it was not intended for use in babies and It’s also an antifungal. I keep trying to tell this woman I am a nurse I have at least more of an idea than she does about medications and health, but she is fucking all knowing and is always right.
Yesterday she got annoyed at me because I was trying to avoid giving her the baby so she couldn’t put the cream on her. Well she put it anyways and then I promptly took her to the bathroom and wiped that shit off with a baby wipe and told my husband what happened. He also wiped it off.
All this crap because we are living in her house. Well soon we will be in our own house and I can fucking dictate wtf happens with my kids.
I love my husband, and I know he loves me. But it hurts me that I simply cannot get him to understand anything I am going through.
It’s not like he was always this way. One of the reasons I fell for him was that he had this ability to see things from other peoples points of view and just ignore whatever offense they carried out. He used to rationalize peoples actions, thinking of where they were coming from, what they were feeling and thinking when they did what they did and that’s why they did it. And I thought it was awesome because he would always be so calm about everything.
Now he is so critical and acts like I am pretending and I don’t do shit or whatever. Anyways. Whatever.